.Miss Effa;

he looked into my eyes

5:10 AM

me and awak went to the airport yesterday...

it was the most meaningful and touching day for me...as usual,we sat at the viewingmall and spent our time together..
at first we got bored..then he played with my handphone.

the exciting part started...
we played the staring game...(where we looked into each other eyes.)
he really looked into my eyes.deeply.hold on to my hands..

he said,"awak,i love you.."

i replied,"i love you too"

then he said,"awak im sorry about the past, forgive me,i didnt mean it to.but it just happen like that...:

he kissed my forehead

i did not said anything because i felt like bursting into tears..
i hugged him so tight,i never felt this way before...he was so sincere.i never seen him so sincere before...haiz...

after hugging him tightly,suddenly i broke into tears...

he wiped away my tears..and told me not to cry...

dear,i was so touch over your speech..but during that 4 months,eventhough it was the past...what had happened,still hurts me like a thousand knives..
but i love u ok..dun worry...promise me it wont happen again...

after 4 months apart...

4:04 AM

yes..after 4 months apart, he finaly came back..came back into my heart..
i still feel that it's all in a dream...i still cant face to reality that he's back...
somehow he promised that those nightmares i had for the past 4 months will nevr happen again...i love u..

so...yesterday,he came to my house...he bought ferrero roche for my mom..
haha after 4 months we finaly meet..i hug him so tight.so tight that he cant breathe..god i miss him like fuck...

however...my heart felt uneasy yesterday..as if im still mad over what had happened...i can forgive him..but how much i've suffered,i can never forget...
i still love him though...but those hurtful days can never be erased..soon hopefully..

he was so cute...his hair is still the same...but damn,he became so materialistic..
and he said that i change..."more mature and pweety" hehe...*blush*
ooh well in that 4 months my appearance and style did change.. from baggy jeans to skinny jeans..no eye liners to thick eye liners...
i became crazy for awhile..but he didnt know that haha..

so we watched 'shooter' and did spend time together..but we did not get horny or wat...the weirdess thing was that the way he looked into my eyes wen we talked,was so deep...he kept on staring into my eyes...haiz..i miss those days...
and i can really felt the love of him the way he looked into my eyes...

by the end of the day,hhe had to go..but that day wasnt enough for me...it was really short...and i dont wanna let him go...it was so hard...i sent him till the bus stop, hugged him for like 4 times...tightly..insisting him not to go...we kissed...but it wasnt enough! ergh!

haiz...so i went back home feeling so moody...i didnt know why..i wanto spend more time with him..because i know that the next time we're gonna meet will be like so long....

baby i love u..you are my life..my happiest moment werent complete if you werent by my side....

god is always fair :)

7:38 AM

WE ARE BACK!!! (Well soon)

thank you awak..for shining my heart..thank u awak for giving me a chance to love u again..

thank you awak for bringin me back the smile onto my face..words can never describe how happy i am this moment...

for 4 months i waited..i prayed for u to come back..and now u come back making my every single dream of u,come true...

now..i feel so secure..in ur arms..

hold on to those promises...hold on to it awak..